Wednesday, May 28, 2008

so long status quo

Once upon a time, I wanted to work from home. I got lucky and found medical transcription. A good friend started her own company and trained me on the job. I've been doing it for nine years now, and women I meet at the ball field are often jealous. They don't realize that I don't currently have the flexible hours everyone assumes with medical transcription. I have a set shift and punch a cyber time card. They also don't realize I do it eight hours a day. ( I used to do it less. I never got the Sunday night blues when I typed only four or five hours a day. It fit nicely in between playtime and nap times with my children). And they don't realize I have to work on Sunday. But all those things they didn't realize, didn't matter really. Because working from home was my original goal, and I still had that.

But tomorrow is my very last day as a medical transcriptionist. I'd tell you my new title for my new job, but I don't really know what it is. The main idea, though, is that I'll be writing. I'll have to be inventive, and I'll use completely different skills. I'm nervous. I can't say I feel exactly sad to leave transcription. But I still have the sinking feeling that comes with letting go.

The best part, of course, is that I still get to work from home. I like it here. I like the little boys who live here, even the two older ones who dare to summer vacation all around me even now while I'm so distracted over starting a new job. Even the youngest one who as I write this is leaning against his bedroom door over and over so I will realize he is out of the toddler bed and wants returned to it.

I'm terribly afraid I'm going to fail. But I like the feeling that maybe this is brave. The real kind of brave - the kind that leads to happy. A place I'll be able to look back from and thank God that I let go.


Felicity said...

Love the Nicole Nordeman references. This song is definitely part of my life's soundtrack. It probably doesn't get played often enough, but I'm working on it.

Good for you for "letting go!"

Matt Bowman said...

I am incredibly proud of and excited for you! Not everyone has the opportunity to or is brave enough to let go of security to embrace mystery. If I may pretend for a moment that I have a cool Australian accent, good on ya'!

Lori said...

Hooray for you! I am so excited/jealous! Can you e-mail me with more details? I really want to pick your brain. (That always sounds so gross...)

Tracy said...

What immediately came to mind was something a wise woman once commented on my blog . . . ENDLESS POSSIBILITIES!! if you don't remember! (sorry I don't know how to make it a link!)

Have fun in your new adventure!

Anonymous said...

To quote one of our fav's Seren....."closing the store is the braaave thing to do!"
You'll be fantastic, good for YOU!

Anonymous said...

Good for you! Leaving the comfort of familiarity is always scary but exciting. I know this new venture will work for you!

Anonymous said...

Oops! The anonymous was me, Pam Spratt aka Cat Girl.

Valerie said...

I know you will be brave! I love Nicole and love this blog. That song also says "The way it always was is no longer good enough!" And towards the end every fire starts with a flame and every storm with a drop of rain...I am happy you are going to go for it! I am happy for you and your family and hope you will soar after you cut the strings and leap!